I’m in between a rock and a hard place, my mind and heart on two different planes of existence. I feel…nothing and everything at the same time. I don’t know which one I don’t want to feel more. I don’t want to be seen but I want to be heard conflicting emotions drive me insane. I don’t even use this app anymore so I feel comfortable typing this knowing I won’t really be able to see if anyone saw or cared about it sometimes late night thoughts are just better being put out of your mind instead of just circulating in it. I have enough in my mind and on my heart to keep me up till 4:30 every night but dreams and nightmares that wake me at 8:30 sharp and won’t let me rest till I’m completely brain dead at 4:30 again. This isn’t a cry for help or any attention I’m just hoping someone who feels the same way might see this and know they aren’t alone and shit cause that’s what most people want to feel anyway right? A connection to something or someone. To feel like a thoughts,decisions,mannerisms, and actions all are connected and resonate with someone/thing and makes them feel like you guys are somehow bonded and care for each other.
Idk maybe I just need a therapist or something. Well my thumbs are sore and it’s 3:14 am so goodnight I’ll be back on this in a couple weeks to reblog like 5 things and maybe post a picture or 2. Here are some ones I took on my new phone 😁✌🏾
